Thursday, March 17, 2011

Coming Clean

Alright ya'll I'm just going to come clean here. I'm going to tell you all my weight. I currently weigh 221 lbs. This is the most I've ever weighed and honestly it depresses me to no ends but then again you all know that from my last post.

I spent some time with my sister today and she inspired me to make a dream board about my fitness goals. I going to make one tomorrow and display it where I will see it every day and hopefully it will help to motivate me. I think on Monday I'll take my measurements and get a before photo taken. I have an appointment with my doctor that day so I guess we'll see where I'm going from there.

So in addition to having hypothyroidism, I also have polycystic ovarian syndrome or PCOS. Between the two, it's a wonder I've ever been able to lose weight in my life! The doctor says that once I lose the weight, those problems, as well as being pre-diabetic, will go away. How am I supposed to lose weight when both of those things are keeping me from it!?! I know it's possible though so I'm going to get there someday. The doctor will put me on some medications probably to help with it but I guess we'll have to see on Monday.

Today I had to go shopping for some new clothes since I don't have many things I can wear anymore. I was able to find some cute shirts that I liked but jeans were a whole other story. I generally fluctuate between a size 16 and size 18. I tried on a pair of size 20 and even they didn't work. Given they were skinny jeans but I didn't know that when I tried them on. Still it caused a mini breakdown right there in the middle of the plus-size department of Wal-Mart. Yeah I'm officially plus-size now, just so we're all clear. My sister advised me to go try D.E.B at the mall for some jeans so that's wear I'll be headed tomorrow. I'm also going to look into maybe getting a personal trainer because I think that will really help me. We'll just have to see how things pan out. Despite my breakdown the other day though, I have a positive least for now.

1 comment:

  1. I understand where you are coming from. All too well. Through genetics, and most likely my weight as well, I also have hypothyroidism. And I wish I was your weight. Between that and my pregnancy, I started off the year at 270 pounds. But, I've been working my butt off with exercise and watching my caloric intake and such. And water. Water water water. You should try to drink half your weight in oz. I've been told that staying hydrated can help your metabolism pick up a little bit because all your organs can do their job rather than freaking out about not having enough water. I've lost 20 pounds so far and I still have 100 or so to go. But I know you and I will both be able to do this. Remember you are strong and that there is always someone else there in the same boat as you and is willing to help. :)