So Monday is officially Day One!!!

Alright alright, I know what you all are thinking, "geez! when is this girl going to get her act together?" I've been saying that I need to get started and yet I haven't done one single workout! Well actually I think lifting girls at work counts as a workout cause I can already see some firmness to my arms but that's just my own thinking. Anyway, since I've been down with "lady sickness" for the past couple of days, not much has been getting done. Tomorrow I will be cured of said sickness but it's Sunday and I want to sleep in and relax. So Monday it is.

I know that to get a really great workout, you need hardcore cardio. For me, I'm not really into all that jumping, running...flailing about basically. I like more relaxed workouts, but ones that are still effective. Pilates. Yoga...some other things I need to figure out but you get the idea. The workout that I'm going to focus on this week is one from last month's SHAPE magazine. It's an ab workout and all you need is an exercise ball, and two 3-5 lbs dumbbells. I've already got those tools on hand so I figure why not give it a shot!

I don't think it feasible to believe that I'll ever have 6 pack abs but I most definitely would love a flatter stomach. And starting this workout and taking little steps at  a time is going to help me achieve that goal. It's not going to be an immediate fix, I know that, but I'm really ready to work on getting fit now. Even though I have about 89 lbs to lose, my goal for the year is to be down at least 30 lbs. I feel that a more attainable goal for now instead of  outrageously thinking  I could lose all 89 lbs this year. It'd be awesome if that COULD happen but like I said, attainable goal.

I'm actually really looking forward to trying this workout and I'm going to see if I can find a link to post it on here. I'm also going to take a before picture prior to starting the workout. Hopefully if all goes well and I can figure out how to post pictures on here, I'll be posting a picture maybe every month to show my progress. And eventually I'll get around to telling everyone that one, not so little number that I'm going to be working so hard to change!

Well what should have been Day One.....

Okay so today should have been Day One...or well Day Two if I'm thinking correctly but either way, here I am again. I was fully intending on getting things started this week with working out and such but alas, my "friend" decided to visit and decided to bring death cramps with her. So needless to say, I've been laying around for the past two days, trying to fight the pain and not act like a total brat towards my husband. I did however decide a few things.

First: I decided that I needed a song each month to deal with each different thing that I'm trying to improve. Since the biggest thing I'm trying to fix besides my weight is my self image, or self confidence, the song I've picked for now is Whitney Houston's "Greatest Love Of All." Sounds totally cheesy I know, but the chorus just really gets to me.

 "I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadows
If I fail, if I succeed
At least I live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity
Because the greatest love of all
Is happening to me
I found the greatest love of all
Inside of me
The greatest love of all
Is easy to achieve
Learning to love yourself
It is the greatest love of all"
See how it fits with me learning to love myself? Yeah I thought it was pretty clever if I do say so myself. So for this month, whenever I'm feeling down and need a pick me up, I'll listen to this song. I'm hoping it works out because as of right now, it's just a theory untested.

Second: I've always heard women say that to make themselves feel better after a tough day, or in order to face a tough day, they make sure they are wearing make-up. Now knowing me, this isn't going to be easy for me. I don't like to take a lot of time worrying about what I look like but I think that's part of the problem. I can't expect my husband to tell me I look pretty when I am lounging around in his pajamas, my hair pulled up in a pony tail, and my face looking same old same old. Well actually he SHOULD tell me I look pretty even then, and he does, but I know he likes it when I put in a little effort. So for the past two days, I've attempted to put make-up on before leaving the house. Yesterday I think I did pretty well, I even put on eye liner, which is saying a lot! Today I didn't feel like doing much but I at least tried a little. I put on moisterizer, foundation, some cover up, and some mascara. I may not look as spiffed up as yesterday but at least it made me feel a little bit prettier than normal.

Third: I recommend that everyone should read Carmen Electra's "How To Be Sexy." It's got good tips and advice in there and while many women (myself included) think it's IMPOSSIBLE to be as sexy as she is, this book shows that with a little work and some practice it IS possible. I may never look like Carmen but I can act like her....just not as slutty and all. Not to say she is slutty, just I won't be taking my clothes off  or wearing revealing clothes in public, just saying.

I know I still have a long way to go and that already it's starting out to be harder than I though but I'm going to get through it and I'm going to succeed with everything that I want! Let's see what tomorrow brings :)

And so it begins.....

Hello blog world!
               Okay I'm not gonna lie here, I'm not the best at keeping up a blog. I never know what to write, or if anyone would even care what I write. But then again, maybe I just need this for a place to vent. Either way, here it goes.

               So you know that one number that all women lie about? The one they'd be mortified if anyone found out? Yeah I'm not talking about age here, I'm talking about weight. Honestly, if  it ever came down to it, I'd glady sing my age over my weight any day. For those of you who don't know, I'm 20 by the way. As for my weight......well maybe I'm not quite ready to tell that number yet but I will tell you this: This blog is going to follow my adventure in making that weight number become a lot smaller!

              Some days are going to be tough..Okay who am I kidding? Most days are going to be tough. I'll complain about getting up early to work out, I'll complain about how my husband has steak while I'm stuck with a salad, maybe. But there are also going to be victory days. Days when I can't help but brag about how well I think I'm doing, or about a new recipe I've tried, or a new class.  All that I hope for this blog is that it can be a place where I can express myself as I try to better myself. And this isn't about just losing weight though, it's about finding in inner, gorgeous me that I know is just dying to come out. Every day that the real me is hidden inside, she is dying a little so I need to find her before she is completely gone!

              So get ready for the ups and downs, the tips and advice, and enjoying the journey of a 20 year old girl as she strives to become the P.H.A.T woman that she is!