Positive Thinking

So I heard somewhere a while back that instead of thinking about how much weight you want to lose, you should focus on the number you want to be. I didn't really think it would work at first but I thought I'd give it a try. So for the past couple of weeks, when I'm getting ready to go to bed, I think over and over in my mind "125.....125......125.....125" I fall asleep with that number replaying in my mind every night.

Since I've started doing this, I've lost 6 pounds! It probably doesn't hurt that I've also stopped eating late at night. I've kinda noticed a few changes already and oddly enough I'm feeling good! Lets hope I can keep this up! My sister S and her bestie(our mutual friend) B have invited me to participate in doing yoga with them on  Saturday mornings. I've only done it once but it was good. I'm excited to keep it up!

I'm slowly but surely working towards my goal and I'm seeing a bit of progress!!!!!! Just thought I'd share that with everyone :)

Feeling a little down.

So with my last post, I was so excited to start this whole running venture but now that excitement has seem to worn off. The biggest reason is that I can't get started with my new adventure. We don't have the extra money for me to buy new shoes or a good bra, plus I'm sure I'll need knee braces because my knees hurt just from standing for long periods of time. How sad is it that at 21, I'm already having joint problems because of how much I weigh? Yeah, definitely sad, I know.

I got an email on Facebook today from a friend from my hubby's mission. She's read this here blog and I actually inspired her to by the couch to 5k app and she had just completed her first day! I'm so proud of her!!!!!!!! I only wish I could inspire myself the way I've inspired her. I really want to get started on this, I really do. I cry a little on the inside every time I think about wanting to work out and realize I can't do the things I want to do because I don't have the proper equipment. I don't want to injury myself in any way so I want to make sure I have the right stuff before I start. You'd think with working two jobs now, we'd have a little extra money but truth-be-told, we don't. Still trying to stick to our budget and so far we've been doing pretty great. There just usually isn't extra money for extra things. I'm thinking about getting a third job so that we'll have a little extra money so I can get me some exercise clothing and start this running stuff!!!!! We'll just have to see how it goes I guess.

I might be back....

Alright I've been MIA for a while and in my last post, I mention that my blog might have died. However, I still log in every day and read others blogs and I'm seeing everyone making changes around me yet I'm not going anywhere. That's not okay with me.

Lately the weirdest thing has been happening to me. My legs feel like they need to run. I HATE RUNNING!!!!! It's not even funny how much I hate running yet everyone tells me I should get into it because it's a good way to jump start weight loss and see results. So since my legs have been craving it, I caved and bought an app on my ipod touch. It's a Couch to 5K thing that goes for 9 weeks and at the end of it, you're supposed to be able to run......well obviously, a 5K. I haven't started it yet but I'm kind of excited. I need to get some shoes first and a better sports bra. A big girl like me has bigger....assets that need to be supported :)

I'm not sure how I feel about taking on this venture but I'm going to try. I think part of the reason I hate running so much is because I'm so out of shape. Honestly I think that's the biggest reason. I mean, aside from the awful pain I get whenever I run of course. Also, I don't breathe very well when I run, courtesy of a semi-blocked sinus passage. I think the biggest problem I'm going to have with this is that I'm lazy. I like to sleep, I like to relax, watch t.v, surf the internet. I just plain don't like to work out or put my body through pain. I know that's the reason I'm so big, besides all the crap I eat as well.

So once I get my shoes and bra, I'm going to try the first week of the program. I'll get back to you soon to let you know how it goes.