The Most Horrifying Thing You've Ever Seen

Okay peeps, here it is. I'm about to post my before photos! I'm freaking out a little on the inside but I know I need to do it. I need to see where I am to know where I want to be. We'll start with the measurements then I'll post the pictures.

As of Monday, August 27, 2012 my measurements are as follows:

Bust: 46 inches

Waist: 38.25 inches

Abdomen: 50 inches

Hips: 54.5 inches

Thighs: 32.25 inches

Arms: 17.25 inches

Weight: 235.5 lbs

Body Fat: 45.2%

BMI: 41.7%

Kinda depressing but it's good to see. Hoping all those will be a little smaller at my next weigh-in on Monday. At least my thighs should be because the Hubby and I have been walking every day so far and plan to keep it up as long as possible. Alright, here goes nothing, photo time!

 

 

 

 Well there ya go. Out there for the whole world to see. I think sometimes you don't realize how big you are until you see something like this. Next month, these pictures will look different!

Curves Complete

Today I started my new exercise, diet and motivation plan-Curves Complete. 3 meals and 2 snacks a day. Exercising 4 days a week. Drinking at least 64 oz. of water every day. Taking my Curves Essentials vitamins twice a day. Walking at least 5,000 steps every day for this first week and then increasing my steps each week by 500 until I reach 10,000 steps. I will have a meeting once a week with my coach who also happens to be my mom so that will be a good way to keep me accountable.

I feel I did pretty great today minus a few mishaps trying to take my vitamins. Those are awful little buggers. I've always had a problem taking vitamins though so it's to be expected. Something about the way they smell and then that smell translates to a taste. Needless to say, I gag. EVERY. SINGLE. TIME. I managed to get both sets down though so victory for me.

I ate all my meals and snacks today. The only extra think I added was an orange and it was a small one at that. I did my Curves workout and even got the Hubby to go on a walk with me and our puppy. Although with all the water I drank today, we were only able to walk for about 30 minutes before we had to go back home so I could use the bathroom lol. I think 60 minutes of activity today is really good for me though. I'm lucky if I get 60 minutes of activity in a whole week, that's how lazy I usually am. I still have my ab workout to do tonight though so I'll get more exercise in as well.

I plan on doing my Curves workout on Monday, Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. I'm planning on doing my ab workout every day and then doing Pilates on Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday. Sundays will be my exercise rest days but we'll probably go for walks and enjoy spending our time together.

I feel much more optimistic this time about how this weight loss is going to go. Hubby and I want to have a baby within the year and due to infertility issues, we have to go through specialists to do it. I know my weight is going to be a problem so I'm trying to fix it now before we even see the specialist. I also want to be at a healthy weight so that when I do get pregnant(fingers crossed on that happening), it'll be a healthier pregnancy and I'll be able to know how to be active and eat right so I can raise my children to not have weight problems like the two of us do.

Who knows how far I'll be able to go with this. All I know it that I'm hoping to get to 200 lbs within this 90-day Curves Complete program. I know it's possible, I just have to make it happen. You can't WILL yourself to change but you can PLAN to yourself to change. I've just gotta stick to my plan and make things happen. I'll be posting a current "before" photo and my current measurements tomorrow.

Well Here We are Again

Hello readers, whoever you may be.

I'm back to writing on this here blog. I need something to keep me accountable. I need more motivation, seriously.

I had a health scare yesterday. I was pretty convinced that my pre-diabetes and become full-blown diabetes. I was having a lot of weird symptoms and so I figured I'd better go get it checked. My hands were shaking so badly while I was waiting at the Dr's office that I could hardly hold my phone to text my husband updates.

Once I was finally called back into a room, the whole process was pretty fast. We found out that I did not, in fact, have diabetes but we needed to figure out what was wrong with me anyway so we started talking about everything. Lately I've been having chronic fatigue, as in in no matter how much I sleep, I can't get enough and I am always tired. It's affecting everything in my life!

The Dr decided to change my depression medication, do some blood work to test my thyroid, and ordered a sleep apnea test. I'm only 22 for goodness sake! My health should not be this bad. I shouldn't have all these problems but unfortunately I do. Every trip to the Dr ends with a "things would be better if you lost some weight." I know. I know. I get it, okay? Every day I have numerous reminders about how big I am and how much weight I need to lose. I'm aware I have a problem. I just don't make any changes or do anything differently. And I know it's my own fault that I'm this way and that I have to be the one to change if I want to get any better.

I made some birthday resolutions which you can read on this blog here. One of those resolutions was to get healthy. Let's face it, losing weight is always a resolution for me but somehow I feel different about this. I'm going to repeat this again, I'm only 22 for goodness sake! I want to have a whole, full life ahead of me. I don't want to spend my time hiding in my room because I hate the way I look or dreading going out with my husband or friends for fear of people judging me because of how fat I am. This is going to be a slow process but somehow it's going to happen. I'm committing myself to workout every shift and work and then on my off days, go to the rec center to do various other things. I'm really interested in doing yoga and pilates classes because I sure do enjoy them. I know exercise alone isn't going to solve all my problems though, eating healthy is going to be even more important than ever. Who knows where I'm going to end up with all of this but it's a chance to improve myself and change the one thing I truly dislike about myself.

New year, new try

Going to get better at updating this here blog. My mother recently bought a Curves and I've been working there part time and have also had the added benefit of being able to work out as well so it's going to be great for my body. I've lost 7 lbs so I'm rocking it so far! I've decided this blog is going to be mainly focused on my weightloss journey so if anyone who reads here wants to follow other aspects of my life, you can follow my new blog here.