Another Attempt

Hello world, I am Emily. I make excuses. Especially when it comes to exercise. I'm really good at making excuses for that. I'm too tired. I didn't get enough sleep. I don't feel well. Death cramps. No time. Although, honestly, when it comes down to it, I just don't like to exercise. I'm not sure anyone who is overweight likes to exercise. I think maybe I could get to that point though...right? I mean there have to be people out there that like to exercise, eh....who knows. Anywho, back to the point of this post.

I had a visit with the doctor today. My main concern: weight (obviously.) I had gotten some information from my lovely mom about an appetite suppressant pill. I thought that maybe if I could take it and start to see results, I'd want to keep going. Of course my doctor was very against me taking that particular pill. "There's no easy fix to weight loss" as if I need another reminder right, geez! Anyway, while my doctor was against the one pill, he agreed to put me back on Metformin to see how it's working out for me. I've got a month before my next follow up so we'll see.

I've been going to the gym and trying to eat healthier. It's hard (DUH!), but I'm really trying to stick with it. I asked the doctor what my healthy weight should be to have a healthy pregnancy when the time is right. He told me that for height and age, I should be about 100lbs. I ABOUT DIED!!!!! Are you freaking kidding me? Me? 100 lbs? Yeah right! The first words out of my mouth after he told me "that's gross!" The doctor agreed that since I'm big-boned (is that even a real thing), it would be improbable for me to weight that little. Instead he tells me that for a healthy pregnancy, I should aim for between 102 to 140 lbs. That narrows it down huh. I'm aiming for between 125 to 135. I think that's good for me so that's the goal.

Had to go swim suit shopping today. TRAUMATIC I TELL YOU! I was so embarrassed I was getting flustered, red-faced, and I started sweating. I ended up buying one that I actually like but I'm still SUPER self-conscience to wear it in public but who isn't. I wore the swim suit to 7 peaks (Utah water park) and after a while, I forgot about my body. I just enjoyed having fun with my friends and being in the water. It was so much fun and I just want to get back to that. Enjoying life without worrying about my body. That someday is coming so soon I can almost taste it! I'm going to work even harder and get to where I need to be!

Long, rambling post I know, and I know I've said a million times that I'm going to change and lose the weight. I just feel like something has changed now and I might possibly start seeing results one day soon.